ADVANCED PRAISE:
“In Katia Raina’s fascinating and sympathetic Castle of Concrete, the concerns of young adulthood are amplified tenfold against a background of historical upheavals. … [A] riveting story about growing up in dark political times.” ―Foreword Reviews, (starred)
“This book stole my heart. Gorgeously crafted and deliciously romantic, Castle of Concrete left me breathless until the very end.” ―Heather Demetrios, author of I’ll Meet You There
“Castle of Concrete is constructed of the finest story materials: complex characters, page flipping suspense, and exquisite details. All in a troubled historical landscape. The story kept me reading with pounding heart.” ―Joyce Moyer Hostetter, author of the award-winning Bakers Mountain Series
“Readers won’t easily forget spunky Sonya, struggling to understand her Jewish roots amid rising anti-Semitism, her activist mother’s secrets, and her attraction to two boys, each of them dangerous in their own way.” ―Lyn Miller-Lachmann, author of the award-winning Gringolandia
“A tour de force about the Russian people, and their first, tentative steps toward what had been denied for generations–a private life in all its imperfect glory. And then comes the ending.” ―Lynda Durrant, author of The Last Skirt
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An excerpt from Castle of Concrete
Chapter 12, “His Girl”
Bus number 346 shakes our bones as it drives us along a patchy
road. The air inside is nothing but fumes and breath. Space, too, is in short
supply, a rare commodity like boots, refrigerators, bread, sausage, or just
about anything. But Ruslan’s hand sliding down the sweaty railing and landing on
mine at each traffic-light jolt more than compensates for these inconveniences
of life.
I’ve never been on
a date before.
A true one. The
kind they write in books about.
Fellow passengers
push their weight onto me. They shovetheir thick shoulders into my nose. I grin
through their wrinkled faces. They look at my smile as though I’m touched, like
my head has departed. Maybe I wouldn’t be smiling, either, if, like them, I was
on my way to a hunt for fresh meat and socks in the capital, net sack at the
ready.
In the inside
pocket of my new pink leather jacket is a pair of second-row Moscow Concert
Hall tickets. And my Jewish Star. I stuck it in there this morning, for, I
don’t know, luck. For courage. Maybe I’ll show it to him today.
Not now, of
course. Not in this angry crowd.
“How was, you
know?” I wink at him, through all those people. “The secret thing?”
His hand stays on mine.
His mouth moves to my ear. “It was good,” he whispers, his hot breath tickling
me.
“Will
there be more?”
He
nods. His thin smile. How I’ve missed it.
“Maybe
next time, you’ll take me?”
Demonstrations. That’s the best place to
be in Moscow. Better than a concert hall. Better than the McDonald’s they have
just built in the city center, where Ruslan promised to take me today, before
my father’s show.
The growing crowd reshuffles yet again at the next
stop. Hmph, a puff of salty-sour air flies toward
me in a foul-smelling snort. It comes from an odd-faced man with
pockmarked cheeks,
his eyes glazed over. Even when the bus slows, the man can’t stand straight.
“What
you gaping at?” he asks me, roughly.
Now I stare, transfixed, at the strange man’s
yellow teeth. Ruslan tries to pulls me closer. But when the bus
jumps over a
pothole, the man leans into my face again. “Nice jacket,” he says.
“Just
don’t look at him,” Ruslan hisses into my ear.
I
turn my head away, and face instead a cranky-looking old man in a checkered
cap, muttering, “Let me through! I’m an invalid! I’m a veteran!”
The
man’s voice rises over the noisy shaking of the bus, about how he fought the
Germans, got a bullet in his calf, and deserved a seat. The sour-smelling
barely-standing drunk beside me tries to latch onto the sleeve of my jacket,
but misses.
Arguments
rise up slowly, thickening like the dust pouring out of the back of the bus,
then settling over us like the soot covering the windows.
“What,
you think she doesn’t deserve a seat?” A younger man with a thoughtful face
points at a harried-looking woman with an empty net sack, whose shawl is
falling off her shoulder. “She works all day, probably has a child to feed,
no?”
“We
deserve one, too, as we’ll be standing in line for McDonald’s for two hours at
least, right?” I ask Ruslan cheerfully, earning scowls from all sides for us
both.
“The
country upside-down . . .” the veteran mutters, shaking
his finger at me.
“McDonald’s
. . . isn’t that nice?” the drunk echoes him.
“Hard-working . . . people . . . can’t find underwear
in a store—not a sausage in a refrigerator . . .” His wavering
voice grows. “. . . while some teenage Jid
struts around in a pink leather jacket
and
stuffs herself at a McDonald’s restaurant.”
I
clutch the railing, gritting my teeth hard. I don’t hear the rest of his
nonsense, not after that word—not again—trailing me like a cursed shadow.
Heat
covers my face. When I look at Ruslan’s, for a second I don’t recognize him.
His eyes grow hard, as though something just closed within him.
“What
did you just say to my girl, dumb
asshole?” Ruslan wheezes.
“Ooooh,
you love your little jid-ovochka,
eh?”
Murmurs
rise all around us. Ruslan gives the drunk a shove on the chest. The crowd
behind the drunk shifts, and he staggers backward.
“What’s
this country coming to?” the checkered-cap veteran
says. He raises his index finger in the air and points it at me,
at Ruslan, at the drunk, who is scrambling back up again.
“It’s
the Jidy, I tell you,” the drunk
slurs.
“I
said, shut it, you fucking idiot!” His face completely unrecognizable now, Ruslan rushes
headfirst at the drunk, though several pairs of arms restrain
him. My heart hammering, I press against him. The young man with the nice face
appears before us, standing tall, separating us from the drunk and the veteran,
both.
“Calm
down, comrades,” he says evenly.
Ruslan
holds me under the arms like I am some kind of a doll, his hands so close to my
chest on either side of me. I don’t move them aside. His breathing slows. “I
won’t let anyone hurt you, myshka,” he whispers. Whom he is trying to soothe, himself
or me, I do not know. “Sh-sh-sh,” he
breathes into my ear, rocking me a little. “Don’t you mind him. I bet he’s on drugs.
I bet he was hallucinating.”
And yet, somehow, the drunk saw
right through me, Ruslan.
The doors of the bus jerk open, letting in fresh
diesel-filled air. More people pile in at each stop, pile on top of
me. They thaw the early autumn chill
off each other’s bodies, breathing,
coughing,
sweating, smelling of smoke, trying to separate me from Ruslan in their fierce search for a
better spot. But he keeps his hands on my waist, or at least I
hope they’re his, holding me tight,
saving me from the shifting crowd, shielding me from a drunk who blames
everything on Jews. I tremble in his arms,
less
now from fear and more from the excitement of being his myshka.
I am his girl, he said so. He said
so.
When she was a child, Katia Raina played at construction sites and believed in magic mirrors. She emigrated from Russia at the age of almost sixteen. A former journalist and currently a middle school English teacher in Washington, D.C., she has an MFA in Writing for Children and Young Adults from Vermont College of Fine Arts. She lives with her family just outside of D.C., and still believes in magic.
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