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Is it possible to love someone too much?
Always considered the beauty of the family, the youngest Brennan sister, Sarah, remains deeply in love with her husband of ten years. Boone Walker, a professional baseball player, travels almost year-round while Sarah stays home and cares for their two children. Her love for her husband is bottomless—so much so that her sisters say it will end up hurting her.
Living apart most of the time makes life difficult, especially since Sarah often wonders whether Boone is sharing his bed with other women on the road, even though he swears he’s been true to her since his infidelity three years ago. While she wants to be happy and move forward in her life, Sarah constantly fears that Boone will break his promise. Now with Boone facing yet another career change, tension rises between the two, adding more stress to an already turbulent marriage. Emotionally exhausted, Sarah can’t cope with yet another storm. Now, she must either break free from the past and forgive Boone completely, or leave him behind and start anew . .
Biography
Jane Porter, a native of Visalia, California, graduated from UCLA with a degree in American Studies and worked in sales and marketing before returning to school to earn a teaching credential and an MA in Writing from the University of San Francisco. Since publishing her first romance novel in 2001, Jane has written and sold 39 novels, including her latest release, The Good Woman, the first book in her Brennan Sisters trilogy. A bestselling author, Jane has also been a finalist for the prestigious RITA award in 2002, 2003, 2008 and 2010 from Romance Writers of America, and her '06 release, Flirting With Forty, picked by Redbook as its Red Hot Summer Read, went back for seven printings in six weeks before being made into a December 08 Lifetime movie starring Heather Locklear. Jane, her surfer husband, and three sons make their home today in San Clemente, CA where she's currently working on her next novel.
I was so happy when this came this came in the mail as I dropped everything and started reading it! I loved the other two books and this one was even better. From the cover to the last page this one will hold you in its arms and not let you breath until the last possible page. Although it was a little on the soap opera side it was still a great amazing read."*I received a copy of this book for free to review, this in no way influenced my review, all opinions are 100% honest and my own."
Chapter 1All you have to do is get through this, Sarah told herself, gulping down wine from her mom’s Waterford Lismore goblet.She didn’t have to like it. Didn’t have to be at the door, greeting every single person as he or she arrived. Didn’t have to know the right thing to say, or the right thing to do, because that was Mom’s job. Dad might be the rock in the family, but Mom was the glue.Mom.Jesus.Sarah drank more wine, blinking back tears as she dodged yet another well meaning guest, trying to avoid her family at the same time, which was even more challenging as the Brennans were a large family, and she the youngest of five, with aunts and uncles and cousins in every corner of the house.Normally she loved her close, opinionated family, but right now she didn’t want to talk to any of them, unable to deal with them. They’d spent the past few days monitoring her eating, her drinking, her parenting skills, and then bombarding her with unsolicited suggestions and advice, forgetting she at thirty-six, she was an adult, a woman, not little Sarah, the charming, good natured baby of the family.It’d been years since she had thought of herself as charming or good natured. Sarah was also certain that Boone, her husband of thirteen years, wouldn’t call her good natured, either. No, he’d probably describe her as intense, emotional, demanding. Maybe even a little unstable, but honestly, what professional athlete’s wife wasn’t?Once upon a time, a long time ago, she’d been the athlete, playing soccer, basketball, and softball in elementary school, and then volleyball, basketball and softball in high school before going on to play volleyball at UCLA. A tall, strong athlete, Sarah had been a physical player, and she’d been blessed with mental toughness, too. After UCLA, she’d planned on going on to law school to take on the bad guys on the world, but instead met Boone and gave up law school to be his wife.She’d never thought it’d been a mistake—trading her dreams for his—until her world fell apart a couple years ago, and she’d been fighting to rebuild her marriage, and her self-esteem, ever since.Sarah drained her glass as she eased through the crowd, wobbling ever so slightly in her black heels as she entered the dining room to refill her glass from the collection of wine bottles on the sideboard.The pale gold bottle, newly opened, felt damp and cold in her hand. The weight of the bottle felt good. It was a familiar feeling, and reassuring. It was a new bottle, recently taken from the refrigerator. Sarah liked newly opened bottles of wine. It meant that there would be plenty more if she wanted another glass.And she’d want another glass.Soon.Replacing the golden bottle in the silver coaster, Sarah felt her father’s gaze from the other side of the long dining table. He’d been watching her ever since she entered the room, but Sarah pretended to be oblivious—something she’d perfected as the youngest---and slipped from the room without making eye contact.Being the youngest did have advantages. Sarah had learned how to manage Dad from watching her older sisters and brother. First of all, you never directly challenged him. He was old-school, a sixth generation San Francisco fire fighter, he was all about serving and protecting his family and community.Second, even if you totally, absolutely disagreed with him, you didn’t ever tell him that. It was a disaster to pull a Brianna. Far better to at least appear to consider his advice, reflect on his wisdom. Even if it was archaic.Mom had always been so good at managing Dad, whether it was handling a situation before it became a crisis, or smoothing Dad’s feathers, once they were ruffled, she knew he needed to feel secure, and respected.Mom had never been shy about admitting that Dad had double standards. His son could do things he didn’t want his girls doing. Like drinking. Tommy Jr could have a beer or two every night when he wasn’t at the fire house, but it made Dad uncomfortable to see his daughters drink. A glass of champagne at Sunday brunch, or Christmas Eve, was nice and festive, but regular drinking? Bad.Speaking of daughters—where was Sarah’s daughter, Ella?
The last time she’d seen her five year old, Ella had been with Sarah’s sister, Kit, but that had been...oh, at least thirty minutes ago. Maybe longer, and that wasn’t good. Sarah couldn’t abdicate responsibility for her children just because one of her sisters had offered to keep an eye of the kids.Entering the family room, Sarah scanned the crowd, spotting Uncle Jack and Aunt Linda with Tommy and Cass, but there were no kids anywhere in sight, no Kit or Ella or Brennan in there. Gulping her Chardonnay, she let the cold, crisp wine warm in her mouth for an extra second before swallowing, and retreated back to the hall, and standing on the bottom step of the staircase, listening for her daughter’s high voice upstairs. Nothing.She wasn’t panicking yet, but she took a swift step down, and teetered, which didn’t help her sense of self-control.Maybe she should stop drinking. Maybe she needed to pay a little more attention to her own family.Weaving through the guests packing the entry hall, she was heading to the living room when a hand reached for her.“Sarah.”Sarah turned, and felt herself be drawn against a big, maternal body, enfolded into a particularly uncomfortable hug.“I’m so sorry, my dear,” the woman whispered in Sarah’s ear as she patted Sarah’s back. “So very, very sorry.”“Yes,” Sarah murmured, juggling the wine glass while attempting to detangle herself.But the woman wasn’t ready to release Sarah and the hug continued, as did the firm pats on Sarah’s back. “I just adored your mother. She will be very missed, my dear.”Sarah sighed inwardly, giving in to the hug, because that’s all she’d been doing for days. Accepting condolences. Speaking of her spirited, wickedly funny mother in hushed, reverent tones. Speaking of her lively, loving Mother in the past tense.I absolutely adored her...She was just wonderful...She will be so missed...Sarah blinked hard, willing the lump in her throat to go away. “Thank you for coming,” she said huskily, successfully pulling away, even as she injected the right note of warmth and appreciation into her voice. As the youngest, Sarah had been able to watch her Mom in action the longest, and her mom, a nurse that had returned to school to earn her MBA in Hospital Administration, was brilliant with people. She had a soft touch that belied her steely core.And then the woman was gone, and Sarah was back on her mission to find her daughter and she squeezed through the crowd, into the living room, searching chairs and small corners in case Ella had found a quiet spot to sit.But no, Ella here, either, and trapped by the mantle with its profusion of flowers and framed photos of Mom, Sarah’s head spun, her stomach churning from too much wine on an empty stomach and the cloyingly sweet scent from the Stargazer lilies filling her nose.My God, but the living room smelled like a mortuary.Suddenly the tears were falling and Sarah faced the mantle so no one could see her cry. She couldn’t bear it if someone approached her now, trying to comfort her. She didn’t want to be comforted, not when she hadn’t even truly begun to grieve. And how could she grieve with hundreds of people reaching for her, talking to her, trying to keep her from feeling whatever it was she was feeling?But maybe funerals weren’t for grieving. Maybe funerals were just a thing you did, a way you marked an occasion, passed time.Maybe once she returned home to Tampa Bay, maybe once she was with Boone, she could let herself feel...let herself hurt...let herself need...“There you are,” Meg Roberts said, pushing through the crowd to reach Sarah’s side, with another sister, Brianna, in tow. Sarah had three sisters and Meg was the oldest, and married with three kids, while Sarah’s fraternal twin sisters, Brianna and Kit, were both forty, single, and committed to their respective missionary work—Kit, teaching Catholic school in Oakland, and Brianna, working as an infectious disease nurse in Africa.“Kit was looking for you earlier,” Meg added, tugging gently at the severe neckline of her black dress and fanning herself. “She wanted you to know that she’s taken your two and my Gabi to the park, thinking it would be good to get the younger kids away from the house for awhile.” Meg exhaled hard, cheeks flushed. “Is it hot in here, or is it just me?”“Good to know it’s not just me,” Meg muttered, lifting a hand to wave at a couple across the room. “Can’t remember their name. Friends of mom. I think the woman used to work at St. Mary’s—““Lorraine O’Neill, and her husband Charlie,” Brianna said, glancing over her shoulder. “I’ve already spent a half hour talking to them today. Lorraine is taking mom’s death really hard, and she’s quite emotional. If she nabs you, you’ll end up comforting her.”“Don’t want to do that,” Sarah said. “Don’t want to do any of this. When are people going to go?”“Soon, I hope,” Meg said. “I’ve got a terrible headache.”“I do, too. I think it’s the flowers.” Sarah slid her empty glass onto the mantle, where it clinked against a vase, and then against a metal frame. All week Aunt Linda had been gathering pictures of Mom, turning the living room into a shrine. Mom, the swaddled newborn. Mom, the wary, toddler on a red tricycle, and then again as the serious, knobby-kneed five-year-old in her plaid uniform on the first day of Kindergarten.And then there was Mom, in her stiff white dress and veil in the all-important Catechism photo, and again at the beach house in Capitola at thirteen with her three brothers, and later as the high school graduate in her velvet shrug, with dark red lips and high arched brows.Sarah reached out to touch her favorite, the photo of Mom as a slender, stunning, twenty year old bride just about to walk down the aisle, with the sun shining around her from the stained glass windows behind her, silhouetting her, making her look like an angel.“I love this one,” she said, adjusting the 8 x 10 frame. It was the picture Dad had on his nightstand, the one Sarah used to stare at as a little girl, dazzled by the beauty of her dark haired, dark eyed mother in her beautiful white dress.“I do, too,” Meg said, her voice cracking. Impatiently she reached up to wipe her eyes. “This has to stop. I can’t cry anymore today. I’ve had it with tears.”“Me, too.” Sarah glanced towards the crowded room, and beyond to the hall. “It’s been a long day. I had no idea the reception would last this long.”“Poor Dad. He’s been surrounded all day. How does he do it?” Brianna asked.“Must be his training, all those years as a fireman, keeps him focused.” Meg’s brow furrowed. “But what about later tonight? When everyone’s gone? I think it’s going to be hard then.”“But I’ll be here tonight,” Brianna said. “And Tommy and Cass. They’re staying over, too.”Meg nodded. “That’s good. Makes me feel better.”But Sarah shot Brianna a cool look. She was glad Brianna was staying with Dad for the next few days, but she wasn’t happy with Bree. Wasn’t sure when she’d stop being angry with Brianna for her power play when Mom was dying.“What?” Brianna demanded, eyebrows arching as she noted Sarah’s expression.Sarah shrugged, refusing to engage, and turned to Meg. “Can Kit manage three young kids on her own?”Brianna groaned. “Kit’s a teacher, Sarah.”Sarah ignored this, too.Meg seemed oblivious to the tension between her younger sisters. “Kit’s not alone. She has Jude with her.”“I don’t find that in the least bit reassuring,” Sarah answered. She didn’t like Kit’s new boyfriend, biker Jude Knight. Jude claimed he’d hung out with Sarah and a friend of Sarah’s years ago, but Sarah didn’t remember him, and couldn’t imagine ever hanging out with someone like him. It wasn’t just his tats and piercings that put her off, it was his whole I-don’t-care-about-anyone-vibe and Sarah just couldn’t understand how kind, compassionate, bookish Kit, could be attracted to someone so completely opposite her in every way. “I don’t trust him,” she added. “And we know nothing about him--other than the fact that he works part-time as a mechanic at a garage in Oakland—and frankly, I don’t think he should be around our kids until we do know more.”“Kit adores her nieces and nephews. She’s not going to let anything happen to them,” Meg said.Sarah didn’t have the same confidence and her wine-fueled imagination was taking flight. “But what if he’s a child molester? What if he tries something when Kit’s not around?”Meg glanced from Sarah to Brianna and back again. “I really doubt he’s a child molester. Jack talked to him a few days ago and thought he was interesting.”“But interesting and safe isn’t the same thing. And we want safe around the kids.”“Sarah’s right,” Brianna said quietly. “One shouldn’t take chances. You really never never. But, on the positive side, I do think Kit is…sensitive…to that sort of thing.”“Okay. You’ve got me convinced. I’ll go give her a call,” Meg said, before slipping through crowd to go find her phone.Oh.That’s what was happening. Meg had just engineered this moment, leaving Brianna with Sarah, hoping that Sarah and Brianna might finally talk. Sort things out. But Sarah felt far from conciliatory, and she turned away from Brianna, reaching for one of the little cards tucked in the nearest floral arrangement.Tom, our thoughts and prayers are with you and the children. Love, The Deluceys“Nice card?’ Brianna asked.Sarah eased the little card back into the equally tiny envelope. “Yes.”“Who was it from?”Sarah tried to give her the envelope but Brianna wouldn’t take it.“How long is the silent treatment going to last?” Brianna asked, her naturally husky voice sharp with exasperation and mockery.Sarah looked down her nose at her sister. Brianna might be older, but she was tiny, barely reaching Sarah’s shoulder. “I have nothing to say to you, Bree.”“You’re being such a drama queen.”“Go away. I’m sure there is someone in the house you can torment.”“This is stupid. You do know that, Sarah?”“Of course it’s stupid to you. You were the one who was there with Mom. And you were the one that got to say goodbye.”“Mom needed to go. She was in pain.”A thick knot filled Sarah’s throat. She swallowed hard, but it just grew bigger. “Please just go away.”Brianna’s delicate features tightened. “I wasn’t trying to hurt you, Sarah. Wasn’t trying to hurt any of you. I was just focused solely on Mom that night, wanting what was best for her—”“Death?”“She was dying.”“And you hurried it along.”“What?” Brianna’s voice spiked, echoing too loudly in the period living room, momentarily silencing all other conversation.Sarah saw the Martins, Hughes, and Keegans—all friends of her parents—glance at her and Brianna before quickly looking away.Brianna leaned towards Sarah, and dropped her voice. “You make me sound like Dr. Kevorkian!”“If the shoe fits…?”“All I did was hold her hand, and tell her how much she was loved—““And what a good job she’d done, a great job, but she’d fulfilled her responsibilities, and now she was free to go.” Sarah blinked, clearing her vision, furious, so furious. “And she did.”“She needed to go. She was hurting.”“I get that. But you should have called us. You should have given us a chance to say goodbye, too.” Her voice broke. “At the very least, you should have called Dad. You owed it to Dad…to all of us.”Brianna jerked her chin up. “She couldn’t have gone, not with us all around the bed, hanging on to her for dear life.”“You don’t know that. We will never know that—““Get over yourself!”“Myself? Myself?” Sarah clapped a hand to her forehead and laughed. “You’re the one that lives on the other side of the world, only flying in for the big moments, and only then on Mom and Dad’s dime—““I have never taken their money,” Brianna snapped, folding bony arms across her thin chest. She’d returned from Africa two weeks ago emaciated, her slender frame downright skeletal. Everyone had been alarmed, and none more so than Mom. There had been endless discussion about Bree’s health, behind Bree’s back--did she have cancer? Was she dying? What had happened to her on the Congo?—even as Brianna insisted she was fine. “Nor have I ever asked for financial support, not even to go to college, unlike you, who had them pay for your undergraduate education, as well as law school.”“I didn’t go, but they’d hoped I go, and they wanted to do it for me. They were proud of me—““Let’s just hope you don’t ever need a real job—““I have a job, Bree. I’m a wife and a mother—“ she broke off, silenced by the pressure of her brother’s hand bearing down on her shoulder.“What’s the matter with you two?” he demanded curtly, his broad shoulders rigid inside his black suit jacket. “Everyone can hear you. Dad can hear you. I bet even Mom can hear you.”Brianna managed a tight-lipped apology and walked away, leaving Tommy with Sarah.He glanced towards Brianna, who was rounding the living room corner to disappear into the entry hall, and watched her a moment, before turning to Sarah. “What’s going on? You and Bree are usually thick as thieves.”“Not anymore.”He frowned. “Have you been drinking?”She flushed. Was it that obvious? So annoying. “I just had a glass. But I need to eat. Haven’t eaten today.”“Then don’t drink anymore.”“I’m not.”“Good.” He glowered down at her, his expression bemused. “So when did Bree stop being your favorite sister?”“No, it wouldn’t. They know it’s true.”“Even if it used to be true, it’s still not something you should say in front of them.” She ran a trembling hand down her hip, lightly smoothing the black velvet fabric. She’d found the dress with the burn out design and three quarter sleeves on Amazon. It’d looked comfortable and was affordable, which was good, because Sarah didn’t intend to ever wear it again.“I think I know why you’re fighting. Cass told me. And I can’t believe it’s true. Hope it’s not true that you’re blaming Brianna for Mom dying when you weren’t there.”“First of all, it’s none of your business, and secondly, I’m not blaming Brianna for Mom’s death. I’m just really pissed off that Brianna wouldn’t call any of us when she saw that Mom was getting ready to go. She could have called us. We were just minutes away—““So you are blaming Bree.”“I just don’t think it’s fair that Brianna was the only one who got to say goodbye—““But life isn’t fair! You of all people have to know that by now.”She stiffened, shoulders drawing back, as she pressed her fingers against her throbbing temple. “What do you mean, me of all people?”“Being married to Boone. His career as a major league baseball player. The whole professional sports world.” He gave her a puzzled look. “What do you think I meant?”“I don’t know.” She rubbed at her brow, starting to feel sick. “I don’t feel so good.”Tommy’s gaze rested on her face. “You need to eat.”“I do.”“Do you want me to get you something?”“No, I’ll find something.”“Most of the food has been put away, with just desserts now in the dining room. But you don’t need a cookie. You need a sandwich, or some lasagna, something—”“I know what I need,” she said, gagging at the idea of eating lasagna. That would make her throw up. But maybe a sandwich, or a toasted bagel. Something light, something to cut the acid from all that wine in an empty stomach.Entering the kitchen Sarah found Meg’s husband, Jack Roberts, at the old farmhouse style sink, elbow deep in hot sudsy water.“Hey, look at you,” Sarah said, surprised to see Jack alone. “Where is everyone? Who is helping you? You shouldn’t be in here by yourself.”“I’m fine. I don’t need help,” he answered, rinsing the pan he’d just washed and placing it on the counter to his left, where it joined a dozen other Pyrex pans, ceramic casseroles, and wooden salad bowls. “If you’re looking for something to drink, I think there’s an unopened bottle of wine in the fridge—”“I’m good,” she said, cutting him off, embarrassed. Make that horrified. Did everyone associate her with wine these days? “Actually I wanted something to eat. But let me give you a hand first—”“Don’t. Honestly. I’m good, Sarah. I really don’t want help. I like doing this, makes me feel---“ he broke off, his expression suddenly wistful---“better. I need to do something. For your mom. Your family.”Sarah went to her brother-in-law and gave him a swift hug. He endured it with good grace. Jack wasn’t particularly touchy-feely. According to Meg, his family hadn’t been very affectionate. “I appreciate you,” she said, giving him another quick squeeze before going to the refrigerator to see what she could find.The refrigerator is packed. Plastic containers of every size and shape filled every shelf. So that’s where the leftovers from all those casseroles and salads and pasta dishes had gone. Dad would have food for days. “Can you recommend anything?” she asked Jack, wondering what would be good.“The chicken Ceasar salad, and the lasagna. But I think the lasagna is gone now.”“Tommy was pushing the lasagna.”“I’m not surprised. He was the one who ate it all.”“I think I’ll just do toast,” Sarah said, closing the fridge door, and opening the breadbox. She popped a slice of cinnamon bread into the toaster and reached for the kettle on the stove. “Want a cup of tea?”“Actually, I’d love one,” Jack answered, taking the kettle from her and filling it.Once the kettle was on the stove, Sarah went in search of teabags and told Jack his options. “Green, black, chamomile, mint, peach mango, orange something?”“How about orange something?”“You got it,” she said, flashing him a crooked smile. She liked Jack, always had. He was smart, funny, with a dry sense of humor. So different from Boone. Boone was Southern, born and raised in New Orleans’ fabled Garden District, he oozed warmth, charm, and oh how women loved that warmth and charm…“Am I really just supposed to stand here and watch you?” she asked, once the mugs were filled with steaming water and she’d set his at his elbow.“No. You’re supposed to sit and watch. Your feet have to be killing you in those shoes. Four inches. Ridiculous.”She glanced at her feet as she pulled out the counter stool. “I always wear heels.”“Why?”“They make me feel pretty.”“You are pretty. So stop crippling your feet.”Sarah blew on her tea, “I’ll keep that in mind next time I have a date night with Boone.”“I can’t believe Boone cares about what shoes you wear,” Jack said, glancing at her over his shoulder.“He doesn’t. I just want to look hot for him. Remind him that he’s already got his number one fan, and she’s right at home waiting for him.”Jack frowned, and seemed as if he was going to say something before shaking his head. He rinsed off a platter, and then a wooden salad bowl, and placed both on the counter. “So how is Boone?”Her heart ached a little. “Good.” It killed her that Boone had to leave right after the service at the cemetery. She’d wanted him here for the reception at the house. She’d needed him here. But he’d already missed two days of games so he jumped on a plane and was rushing back to Florida for the end of Spring Training.“It’s good he came for the services,” Jack said quietly, as if he able to read her mind.Sarah swallowed around the lump in her throat. “I’m glad his manager let him come.”“Your Dad was glad to see him.”“I just wished he could have stayed for the whole day, and gone home tomorrow or with us on Sunday. It’s so much easier flying when Boone’s along. He’s so patient with the kids and he can manage all the bags—“ she broke off, hating that she was beginning to sound pathetic. She had a great life, a great husband, great kids—so much to be thankful for—but she did wish she had more time with Boone. It was the one thing she couldn’t seem to get enough of, with him always packing and unpacking, his suitcase a constant on the bench at the foot of their bed.But it wouldn’t be long before he retired. He’d be thirty-nine soon, in just a couple weeks, and that was ancient in baseball. Grandpa, the rookies called him. The rookies weren’t far off. There weren’t many players Boone’s age in the majors who could still hit the ball like Boone. But then, Boone was special. He always had been.“Heard he had a great Spring Training,” Jack said.She nodded, relaxing a little. “It was a great Spring Training.”“JJ said Boone had three home runs last week.”“He hasn’t hit this well in a long time,” she said, wanting to be excited about the new season but dreading it, too. There was always so much to worry about. Team politics, trades, injuries, Boone’s performance at plate, the fickle fans, the groupies.Sarah shuddered and stopped herself there, not wanting to think about the girls or groupies tonight. They were part of baseball--a fact of life--but they didn’t have to bring her down tonight. It’d been such a hard week…a hard year…“How’s your dad holding up?” Jack asked, glancing at her as he rinsed a massive Pyrex bowl that had been filled with potato salad earlier.“Okay. I think he’s reverted to his firefighter role---focus and get through it.”“I’ve been amazed at his composure.”“So have we,” she said, remembering the noon funeral Mass at St. Cecilia, and the graveside service after. The church had been packed, and almost everyone followed over to the cemetery. Dad had been quiet, and attentive, during both services. It wasn’t until the end of the graveside service, when the casket was lowered, that he went down on one knee, bent his head, and cried.Those who’d remained left for the house then, everybody moving on to the reception, except for Boone and Tommy Jr who stayed behind with Dad. Eventually they accompanied him back to the house for the reception, and then Sarah had just enough time to give Boone a quick hug and kiss before he jumped in a cab and took off for the airport.Jack reached for a damp dishtowel, dried his hands one final time before crossing the floor to toss the wet towel into a white plastic basket in the laundry room next door. “I think that’s it,” he said.“You deserve a medal of valor,” Sarah said, sliding off the stool and stretching.“I’m a hero?” he teased.“You are,” she answered. “Absolutely. You’ve been there for Meg, and that’s what counts.”“I don’t know about that.”“I do. Meg told me how amazing you’ve been. You’ve cancelled your trips to DC, and you’ve been managing the house and kids so Meg could be with Mom as much as possible. That’s pretty cool.”He shrugged uneasily. “I cared about your mom. And I care about Meg. It’s the least I can do.”Sarah frowned, thrown by the way he said, I care about Meg. It didn’t sound right. Shouldn’t he have said, I love Meg? “You and Meg, ok?”She nodded.His shoulders twisted. “I don’t know. They are what they are.”That definitely did not sound good. “Things still rocky?”He made a face as he shrugged again. “We have our ups and downs. Sometimes it feels like more downs than ups.”“But you haven’t thrown in the towel yet,” she said, trying to be encouraging.“Not yet.”“That’s good.”“Is it?”Sarah heard the weariness in his voice and her chest tightened. “I think so,” she answered, knowing that she and Boone had been through a difficult couple of years, but she couldn’t imagine life without him. He was as important to her as oxygen—not that her sisters thought she should love any man that much. “Boone always says—“ she broke off as Kit entered the kitchen, carrying Ella, who was crying inconsolably.“There’s your mommy,” Kit crooned, kissing Ella’s wet flushed cheek. “I told you we’d find her. Your mommy didn’t go anywhere. No need to cry. She’s right here talking to Uncle Jack.”“Come here, baby,” Sarah said, taking her daughter from Kit. “What’s wrong? Why such a sad face?”“I want Daddy,” Ella wailed. “I want my house. I want to go home. And I hate Brennan. He’s so mean.”Checking her smile, Sarah cuddled her five year old. “What did Brennan do this time, sweet pea?”“He said he was going to bury me like Grandma—““He’s not!” Sarah interrupted, looking at Kit over her daughter’s head. “That’s a terrible thing for him to say.”“I told him the same thing,” Kit said with mock sternness, her blue eyes warm. “He’s with Dad, having a time out in the dining room right now.”“I don’t want to get buried!” Great crocodile tears rolled down Ella’s face. “I don’t want to be covered up with dirt. Why did they cover Grandma with dirt?”“Because Grandma died,” Sarah said gently.“And so she went to Heaven to be with God and Jesus and Mary and all the saints and angels,” Meg added, entering the kitchen and leaning against the doorframe.“Is Grandma with angels now?” Ella asked, looking into her mother’s eyes.Sarah nodded. “Yes, and they’re going to keep Grandma company, and make sure she won’t be lonely.”Ella reached up to touch Sarah’s face, her small hand gentle on her mother’s cheek. “Can we go see her?”“Someday.” Sarah kissed Ella. “But not now, because Daddy would miss us, and Grandpa needs us. Maybe we should go see Grandpa now?”“And then we can go home?”“Not to our house. But maybe to Aunt Meg and Uncle Jack’s. We’re staying with Aunt Meg and Uncle Jack for a few nights, remember?”“Without Daddy?”“Daddy had to go back to Tampa Bay, but we’ll see him in a few days.”“I want to go home now.”
“I think you’re tired, sweetheart. I know I’m tired. It’s been a really long day.” Sarah glanced at Meg, and then Jack. “Do you think we could leave soon?”Meg glanced at Jack, and Jack nodded.“I’ll round up the kids,” Meg said. “Let Dad know we’re leaving.”“Great.” Sarah kissed Ella’s cheek, snuggling her closer, needing her sweet girl’s warmth tonight. “I’ll get Brennan and we’ll say our goodbyes.”
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